Sunday, June 15, 2025

Full Flow: Dahlias, Sprinting, and the Rhythm of Mid-June

 🌼 Dahlia ‘Veronne’s Obsidian’ — Early Season Powerhouse

Single-flowered dahlia ‘Veronne’s Obsidian’ glowing in full sun, petals deep maroon with a golden centre, buzzing with bees.


Dahlia ‘Veronne’s Obsidian’ is a compact, single-flowered variety that grows to around 60–80 cm tall. The petals are dark — nearly black — with a golden central disc, set against moody, dusky foliage. It starts flowering in June and keeps going until the first frost.


A bumblebee feeds at the golden centre of a nearly black, star-shaped Dahlia ‘Veronne’s Obsidian’ flower, petals curling with deep texture against a soft green background.


It’s one of the first dahlias to get moving, and unlike the fluffier doubles, its simple, open form makes it easy for pollinators to access. It loves full sun, fertile soil, and a sheltered position. Good in borders — excellent in containers or anywhere you want reliable early colour.

I’ve grown it for years. It’s my favourite dahlia — not because it’s the most dramatic, but because it’s the most dependable. Vigorous, balanced, easy to divide. I started with three tubers. Now I have seven plants, all thriving.

Placement changes everything. In the main border, where it sees less direct heat, it’s still bulking up. Lots of promise, but no flowers yet. But up against the bright south-facing wall, the plants are already in full flow. That wall traps heat and throws back light — it gives them a head start of several weeks. The difference is stark. Flowers open cleanly, hold well, and stay busy with bees all day long.

Right now, mid-June, this is the most floriferous plant in the garden. Nothing else is giving this much colour or feeding pollinators so actively — well, apart from the Catmints. If you can give it full sun and a warm, sheltered spot, it will do more than most plants do all summer.




☀️ Sun Returned — Movement Followed

The sun came back today, and with it, a simple urge — go outside, move the body, reset. I drove to a nearby sports ground and stepped onto the grass, ready for my own kind of training session.

I began with slow jogging — not running, not even really jogging as most would see it, but something in between. It’s a low-impact style developed in Japan, popularised by Professor Hiroaki Tanaka, where you move gently, landing softly, keeping effort minimal. You aim to jog at a pace where conversation is still easy — for me, that means about 4–6 km/h. It looks casual but builds endurance in a sustainable way.

I did three slow, steady laps around the field. Then I shifted gears.

Four short sprints — all out, 100 percent effort. The kind that make your heart thump like a bass drum in your ribs. I’ve always fancied myself a sprinter. My legs and hips have real power. Explosiveness is natural to me. Though with my ongoing shoulder injury, I couldn’t quite hit top speed. Still, it felt good to push.

Once my heart rate came back to something manageable, I picked up the slow jogging again — but in reverse. Jogging backwards shifts everything: muscles, balance, focus. At the narrow ends of the field, I pivoted into sideways running, changing direction each time to stay balanced.

Eventually, satisfied and sweat-slicked, I brought it all down with static stretching. I’ve always been a big fan of stretching and yoga-style movement. Back in 2008, I picked up a copy of Stretching Anatomy by Arnold Nelson and Jouko Kokkonen. I still have it — barely holding together, the pages loose, the corners curled. But I use it regularly. It’s a quiet companion to all the louder parts of my training.

I sat in the grass, stretched through the hips and hamstrings, then headed home. Still buzzing, I kept going — 12 kg kettlebell swings, then explosive step-ups. Full effort, focused form.

To finish, I turned to music. Seven minutes of Joris Voorn’s Goodbye Fly.


That track hits something primal in me. Of all the things I do — running, lifting, sprinting — nothing spikes my heart rate and adrenaline like dancing. It’s pure output. No thought, just movement.


⏳ Fasting, Food, and Fuel

Just two hours from completing another 24-hour fast. I didn’t plan it — that’s the point. When your eating habits naturally leave 16 to 18 hours of the day food-free, extending it to 24 isn’t a feat. It’s a rhythm. You look at the clock and realise you're nearly there.

I’ll break the fast with a protein-rich dinner, balanced with some carbs. Fish will be the main. Then oven fries. But the part I really look forward to — the part I can’t seem to stop craving week after week — is the combination of fries smothered with chilli red kidney beans. Simple, filling, outrageously good. The fish and the beans together deliver a strong hit of protein, the fries satisfy the starch craving, and the whole thing feels earned.

I’ve also started adding extra virgin olive oil to every meal — not just any olive oil, but high-phenolic EVOO. These phenolic compounds are natural antioxidants found in premium cold-pressed oils, known for their anti-inflammatory and heart-protective properties. The better the oil, the stronger the peppery bite at the back of the throat — that’s the sign.

I usually go with a tablespoon and a half per meal. Today I’ll drizzle some over the fish once it’s cooked, but most of it will go straight into the chilli. It lifts the dish completely. The richness, the heat, the smooth fat against the earthy beans — it’s become essential.


Wednesday, June 11, 2025

Reflex Morality: The Invisible Training Behind Ethical Collapse

Contents

Introduction: The Reflex Behind the Ethic

I. The First Lie: Childhood, Obedience, and the Training of Conscience
  Reflex Before Reason
  When the Lie Becomes Known
  Springtime Compliance
  From Bunnies to Bibles
  Ded Moroz and the State
  Animated Allegiance
  Learning to Wear the Mask
  Kayfabe and the Adolescent Mind
  The Reflex That Replaces Conscience

Author’s Note: The Wise Fool

II. Moral Disengagement: Conditioned Ethics in the Adult World
  Helen at Work: The Good Citizen with Dirty Hands
  Case Studies in Collapse: Enron, Theranos, WeWork, FTX
  The Pavlovian Symphony: Ting Ting and the Sound of Collapse

The Architecture of Disengagement (Bandura’s Eight Mechanisms)

Reflex Atheism: Belief, Doubt, and the Illusion of Rebellion

The System Rewards the Reflex

Introduction: The Reflex Behind the Ethic

What if your conscience isn’t yours?

What if the moral choices you trust are just habits — conditioned early, rewarded often, and rarely questioned?

We imagine ethics as conscious, principled decisions. In reality, much of what we call morality is conditioned reflex — not reason, but habit.

Diagram illustrating neural pathways of conditioned reflex and habit formation.

From childhood, rituals like Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, and early religious teachings train us to equate obedience with reward. These are not lessons in virtue. They are exercises in behavioural control. The child who learns to perform belief for gifts becomes the adult who performs compliance in workplaces and institutions, often without realising it.

This essay argues that moral disengagement — the silent complicity behind corporate frauds, ethical collapses, and institutional failures — is not a failure of conscience but its replacement. Conditioned compliance mutates, not disappears. Early reflexes survive in new forms, shaping adult behaviour beneath the surface.

Drawing on Pavlovian conditioning, Bandura’s moral disengagement theory, and organisational psychology, we trace how ethical reflexes are engineered — and why recognising this hidden architecture is the first step toward true moral agency.

Illustration of Pavlov’s classical conditioning — bell, dog, food response.

Until then, what we call a moral compass may be nothing more than a well-tuned reflex.


I. The First Lie: Childhood, Obedience, and the Training of Conscience

Reflex Before Reason

In the earliest years of life — roughly from birth to age seven — the human brain undergoes one of its most impressionable phases. Psychologists refer to this as the formative period or, in neurodevelopmental terms, a critical period. During this window, neural pathways are rapidly established through repetition, emotional stimuli, and observed behaviour. It is here that the foundational frameworks for perception, trust, authority, morality, and identity are laid down. Once set, these early patterns become extremely resistant to change — not because they’re rationally chosen, but because they’re embedded before rationality even fully develops.

This is the stage when children absorb far more than they understand. They imitate tone before content, action before meaning. They accept structures not because they are true or just — but because they are given.

Photo of a child mimicking an adult’s actions, symbolising learning without comprehension.

The brain prioritises survival and social belonging over logic, and it learns to associate safety with approval. What is praised becomes “good.” What is scolded becomes “bad.” This is not ethics. It’s encoding.

The consequences of missing this critical window are profound. In the tragic case of “Genie,” a child discovered in 1970 after being isolated and abused for over a decade, the absence of social and linguistic interaction during early development left permanent cognitive damage.

Artistic representation of a child alone, conveying developmental deprivation.

Though she was later exposed to language, she never fully acquired grammar or fluent speech. The capacity was not merely delayed — it was lost. This illustrates how foundational, and how unforgiving, the critical period truly is. When basic inputs like language, affection, or modelling are absent during this stage, no later effort can fully compensate.

And yet, during this exact same period — when the mind is wide open, absorbent, and defenceless — we introduce one of the most potent moral training rituals masked as festivity: Christmas.

At its centre is the omniscient figure of Santa Claus — a benevolent authoritarian who rewards compliance and punishes disobedience.

Illustration of Santa Claus with an authoritative but smiling posture, symbolising reward and surveillance.

Wrapped in joy, sugar, and tradition, this seasonal performance is one of the earliest large-scale behavioural control systems a child will encounter.

Santa Claus is not merely a festive myth; he is a tool of conditioning. Children are told they are being watched. Good behaviour will be rewarded with gifts; bad behaviour will result in absence, disappointment — or worse, public shame (“Santa’s not coming this year”). This is classical conditioning at work: emotional reward (presents, approval) is tied to obedience, while disobedience is punished through social and emotional deprivation.

Adults participating in this ritual — parents, teachers, TV specials — become reinforcers of the system. They do not question its moral validity because they, too, were conditioned by it. The child learns: morality is surveillance, reward is compliance, and authority is unquestionable if it’s benevolent enough. These are not abstract values. They’re habits of mind. They’re reflexes.


When the Lie Becomes Known

At some point — five, six, maybe seven years old — the child begins to suspect. Santa Claus might not be real. They hear whispers from older siblings or catch inconsistencies in the story. The chimney doesn’t make sense. The handwriting on the tag looks familiar. But here’s where the conditioning deepens.

The moment of realisation is not one of rebellion. It’s one of adaptation. Children learn not to challenge the fiction, even once they recognise it as fiction — because the structure of reward remains.

Image of a child cautiously pulling back a curtain, representing dawning realisation and suppressed dissent.

They keep pretending to believe. They nod, smile, write letters, and perform “goodness” not because they still believe in Santa, but because they understand how the system works.

This is no longer innocence. It is strategic compliance.
And it’s the first seed of Moral Disengagement.

The child now knows: this is a lie, but going along with it is rewarded. The psychological switch flips. Ethical consistency is replaced by social calibration. The lesson isn’t “tell the truth.” It’s “go along to get along.” Dissonance is buried under tradition, conformity, and positive reinforcement.


Springtime Compliance

If Christmas conditions through omnipresent surveillance and obedience to a moral overlord, Easter operates more subtly — but with the same psychological mechanism. Enter the Easter Bunny: another invisible, magical figure who dispenses rewards in exchange for compliant behaviour.

Illustration of a cheerful Easter Bunny subtly holding a clipboard, symbolising reward-for-behaviour oversight.

Again, the myth is presented not as story, but as truth — and the rewards are tangible: sweets, toys, praise.

Children are encouraged to “be good,” not for goodness’s sake, but to secure their share of chocolate eggs. The egg hunt itself is an orchestrated exercise in reward-seeking, training children to search, collect, and celebrate — all within the rules defined by adults. It’s gamified compliance, wrapped in innocence.

But the real effect takes hold when, like Santa Claus, the child realises the Bunny isn’t real. By this point, the ritual has become a social contract. They understand the game is fiction — yet still choose to play along. Why? Because they’ve learned that pretending to believe keeps the system intact. And the system pays off.

This is not mere fun. It’s behavioural programming.

The child learns to maintain a shared illusion for the sake of social cohesion and personal gain. They suppress truth in favour of benefit. They mirror belief to preserve harmony. Another layer of dissociation is added: the ability to knowingly participate in something false, while simultaneously benefiting from the rewards of participation.

Conceptual art of a person holding a smiling mask in front of a neutral or blank expression, symbolising dissociation.



From Bunnies to Bibles

By the time the child reaches the age of deeper cognitive reflection — often around seven to nine years old — they are introduced to Christianity in a more structured way. Sunday school, scripture readings, hymns, catechism classes. The tone shifts: from playful myth to eternal consequence.

But the structure remains identical to what they’ve already internalised.

In place of Santa, there is God: omniscient, invisible, always watching.

Artistic rendering of a large eye in the sky watching a small figure below, symbolising divine omnipresence.


In place of the Easter Bunny’s rewards, there is Heaven: eternal bliss, unconditional love — but only if one follows the rules.
In place of being “naughty” and missing out on presents, there is sin, guilt, and the threat of Hell.

The mechanisms are the same: surveillance, reward, punishment. But now the stakes are infinite. The child who once pretended to believe in Santa for a chocolate bar is now expected to believe in divine authority for salvation — or at least to act as if they believe. The reflex has already been trained: compliance = reward, defiance = isolation.

So they go along with it.

Even if the stories don’t fully make sense, even if internal doubts arise, the pattern holds. Smile. Recite. Participate. The church, like the holiday rituals before it, becomes another theatre of external performance over internal conviction.

Photograph of a traditional church interior, empty and formal, symbolising ritual and conformity.

In this process, children are rarely encouraged to question — not because religion forbids it outright, but because questioning threatens the behavioural compact. Instead, they learn to mirror belief, to mimic conviction, to repeat the right words and display the right feelings. Even when doubts flicker inside, those are tucked away — buried under the desire to belong, to be praised, to avoid shame.

This is dissociative morality: the split between what one thinks and what one performs. A rehearsed ethic. A learned duality.
And it will follow them into adulthood — into boardrooms, bureaucracies, and blind obedience to unethical norms.


 

Ded Moroz and the State: Conditioning Without Gods

In 1935, under Joseph Stalin’s regime, the Soviet Union officially reintroduced Ded Moroz — the Slavic equivalent of Santa Claus — into public life. But this was not a return to folk religion or spiritual tradition. It was something more calculated. More ideological.

Ded Moroz was stripped of his religious roots and rebranded as a secular symbol of state-endorsed virtue.

Historical Soviet poster reimagining Ded Moroz as a secular state figure, symbolising ideological conditioning.

He didn’t deliver gifts from a moralised heaven. He brought them from the Party’s endorsement. He was no longer tied to Saint Nicholas or Christian mythology. He was the People's Santa, delivering joy in the name of socialism — and reinforcing a crucial message: the system provides, but only if you conform.

This wasn’t accidental. Soviet leadership understood the psychology: children respond to stories, rituals, and visible systems of reward. They also understood something deeper — that belief systems don’t require gods, just repetition, structure, and incentive. The rebranded Ded Moroz was Pavlovian conditioning in boots.

The child sees a figure of authority. The figure dispenses gifts. The gifts are tied to behaviour.
No angels. No afterlife. Just compliance and compensation.

It was cultural engineering at its purest. And atheistic in form — not because it denied spirituality, but because it replaced it with system logic.
The message: morality is defined by the state, and the state rewards those who mirror its values.

This makes Ded Moroz a perfect historical case study of how moral reflexes can be engineered without divine reference. It wasn’t about belief. It was about participation. Pretend. Perform. Be rewarded.
Just like Santa. Just like the Bunny. Just like the office.

Illustration of identical toy soldiers marching in formation, symbolising performative conformity.



 

Animated Allegiance

By the time a child is immersed in television — typically before school age — they are already conditioned to accept contradictions. But now, that conditioning deepens through visual storytelling: cartoons. Talking rabbits, domestic dogs who own houses, cats with jobs, pigs in suits — a whole universe of anthropomorphised animals living out exaggerated human dramas.

At first glance, it’s nonsense. Animals wearing trousers. Mice running corporations. Ducks in police uniforms. But children don’t reject the absurdity. They internalise it. Not because it makes sense, but because the system of reward remains intact: laugh, enjoy, follow the story — and be entertained, included, praised.

What’s actually being trained here is the suspension of critical thinking in favour of emotional coherence.

This is not just escapism. It’s rehearsal.

Children learn that truth is secondary to structure. That coherence is manufactured. That consistency is not required for participation — only belief, or the performance of belief.

Illustration of anthropomorphic animals in a decaying hall, pigs addressing a submissive crowd, symbolising the absurdity and corruption of power through social learning.

Another layer of dissociation is laid down: what feels right internally can be overridden by what is presented as normal externally.




Learning to Wear the Mask

Long before Halloween became a plastic spectacle, it was Samhain — one of the four quarter-festivals in the Celtic calendar, marking the end of harvest and the onset of winter.

But Samhain was not just seasonal — it was symbolic regulation, social programming, and practical behavioural cueing wrapped in story. These early people didn’t have clocks. They didn’t need them. Their religion was the clock. Each festival was a cog, each ritual a reminder, each mask or fire a gesture to synchronise behaviour with environmental shifts.

Samhain said:

  • It’s time to light fires — not because of spirits, but because it’s getting cold.

  • It’s time to wear heavier clothes — but wrap it in the logic of disguise, so the change feels sacred, not optional.

  • It’s time to gather, to reinforce bonds — because isolation in winter kills.

  • It’s time to perform — because the appearance of control helps maintain social order when nature turns hostile.

The masks worn were not metaphysical. They were instrumental. They taught people how to move, when to gather, when to fear, and what to believe — not as truth, but as functionally useful fiction.

This is ritual as infrastructure. Myth as calendar. Belief as behavioural scaffolding.

Samhain as seasonal programming masked in ceremony.


Conditioned to Perform: The First Theatre

Erving Goffman, in The Presentation of Self in Everyday Life, argued that human interaction functions like a stage. We present ourselves not as we are, but as we are expected to be. We perform. We manage impressions. And the success of that performance determines our access to belonging, approval, and reward.

Halloween, for children, is an early dress rehearsal for this lifelong performance. The costume may be silly, the chant simple, but the psychological script being rehearsed is far more serious.

The Front Stage: Role Over Self

Children learn early that social success depends less on sincerity and more on role precision. This is not unique to childhood — it’s the foundation of workplace behaviour too. What begins as Goffman’s front-stage performance — crafted for an audience — mutates under pressure into what Irving Janis called Groupthink: the desire for harmony so strong it overrides independent thought. The more tightly knit the team, the more dangerous the performance. Unity becomes illusion; dissent, a threat.

The Mask as Entry Pass

The mask isn’t just accepted — it’s expected. Without it, a child might be left out. Without it, an employee might be sidelined. Studies in organisational psychology show that high group cohesion, especially under pressure, creates conditions ripe for conformity and silence. This isn't just about belonging — it’s about survival within systems where role performance is rewarded and deviation is quietly punished.

Impression Management: Say the Line, Get the Candy

At Halloween, kids don’t have to believe in monsters. They just need to play their part. In the workplace, the principle is the same: follow the script, hit your cues, and you're safe. Deviating — whether by questioning leadership or proposing unpopular ideas — often triggers social penalties: being labelled “not a team player,” left out of conversations, or passed over for advancement. This dynamic mirrors the Groupthink trap: self-censorship, illusion of unanimity, and the quiet burial of critical thought.

Backstage Self: Hidden, Irrelevant

The backstage self — the unfiltered, questioning self — rarely makes it into the meeting room. Over time, people forget it matters. Performance dominates identity. The risk isn’t just burnout — it’s institutional blindness. As Goffman observed, the longer the play runs, the more seamless the act becomes. And as Janis warned, when no one questions the script, bad decisions aren’t just possible — they’re inevitable.

The Audience as Enforcer

Reinforcement doesn’t need to be explicit. The audience — whether peers, managers, or society — signals approval through smiles, silence, and promotions. This tacit enforcement of the norm props up the performance. Groupthink thrives in these quiet nods, these subtle affirmations that discourage deviation. The unspoken rule is clear: don’t break the scene. Don’t question the ritual. Wear the mask.

And in time, they forget it’s a mask at all.

A visual metaphor for conformity, impression management, and the suppression of individuality within institutional settings.


Saturday, June 7, 2025

Lessons in Wildness: Notes from a Living Garden

 A Change in the Weather

It’s been a week since my last update, and the garden feels it. Gone are the endless sunny days of spring; now we’re firmly in a classic Irish summer — rain and gloom most days, punctuated by brief, teasing intervals of sun.

The shift has been decisive. The garden, once surging ahead, has slowed. The wind, the rain, and a noticeable drop in temperature seem to have curbed the enthusiasm of many plants. Growth has stalled, and the vibrant energy of early summer feels muted.

No Mow May: Letting Nature Breathe

No Mow May is a simple but powerful idea: step back from mowing for a time and give grass, wildflowers, and pollinators a chance to flourish. It’s not about letting everything go wild — it’s about being selective. In my garden, I leave some areas to grow long while keeping others neatly mown, carving paths through the taller grass and flowers to keep a sense of structure and flow.

One spot I focus on each year is a patch alongside a Leylandii hedge — north-facing, shaded all winter, and only catching the light as spring returns. It’s perfect for leaving long: growth is steady, not rampant, and the grass stays upright without flopping. I usually give it a light cut every six weeks, and it’s about due for one next week.

shaded north-facing grass area left uncut for No Mow May

Early Growth: Bulbs Through the Grass

Another part of the garden is left long too, but with a different rhythm. From late January onwards, I ease off mowing here — not for No Mow May, but to give space for the first bulbs to rise through the grass. This area is thickly planted with bulbs, circling around an old Crab Apple tree, a quiet focal point in the middle of the lawn.

The crocuses are always the first to make their appearance. I have a few varieties scattered across the patch; some are early risers, peeking out as soon as January, while others bide their time and don’t show until February.

A vibrant yellow crocus blooming amidst long green grass, catching soft winter sunlight — signalling the first signs of spring.

Soon after the crocuses, the muscaris — or grape hyacinths — begin to emerge. I grow several varieties. The earliest ones are striking but not much use to bees. Later in February and into March, though, Muscari armeniacum appear en masse, and these become a reliable food source for early pollinators.

A cluster of deep violet muscari (grape hyacinths) rising through dewy grass, framed by soft green light — a bold early splash of colour in late winter.

The last of the early risers in this area are the snowdrops — heralds of spring. It’s always a lift to see them come. In the park next to me, they pop up in January, but in my own urban garden, they arrive later, typically in February. Shade lingers longer here, with the house itself, mature trees, and dense shrubs casting deep shadows over the lawn in these early months.

A delicate snowdrop flower with translucent white petals and a soft green heart, captured against a blurred background of early spring light.

A Spring Awakening: Natives Join the Party

As March rolls into April, the garden properly comes alive. Dandelions, often overlooked, burst open alongside the muscari — a bright, eye-catching pairing that’s a feast for the eyes and a crucial resource for early pollinators.

A bright yellow dandelion in full bloom, hosting a dark-coloured Dance fly, surrounded by lush spring grass — a vital nectar source early in the season.

Later, the snake’s head fritillaries make their entrance. These distinctive flowers, with their chequered, nodding heads, are a big hit with early bumblebees.

A pair of snake’s head fritillaries with their iconic purple-and-white chequered petals, hanging delicately in a sea of green — a magnet for early bumblebees.

Another native favourite appears in late April: the Cuckoo flower, or Lady’s Smock. Its name harks back to the timing of the cuckoo’s return from warmer climes. In May, it spreads across the garden en masse, a delicate sea of soft lilac flowers.

Delicate pale lilac blooms of the Cuckoo flower (Lady’s Smock) standing tall against a blurred green background — a classic marker of spring's progress.

Beyond its beauty, the Cuckoo flower is also a vital host plant for the Orange-tip butterfly.

An Orange-tip butterfly resting on a vibrant purple wallflower, its distinctive mottled green-and-white underwings perfectly camouflaged.

From February through May, daffodils also accent the area. They’re mainly for show — but the cheerful sight of daffodils in spring is hard to beat.

My favourite arrives later: the Poet’s daffodil (Narcissus poeticus), with pure white recurved petals and a small, vivid central corona edged in red.

A single Poet’s daffodil (Narcissus poeticus) with elegant white recurved petals and a small yellow corona rimmed with red, set against a lush green background.

Lessons from the Grass: Camassia vs Allium

This spring, I planted a couple of Camassias into the grass. Only one survived — but it proved Monty Don’s point: "Alliums for the borders, Camassia for the grass."

A blooming Camassia with starry, pale cream flowers rising from lush, tall grass — a natural fit for a wild lawn setting.

Years ago, I planted drumstick alliums. They lasted a couple of years but were soon crowded out by the grass. Camassias, bigger and tougher, seem better suited to hold their own. I plan to plant more this autumn.

Summer’s Quiet Flourish

As the season moves on, the grass grows tall. It’s tempting to cut it back in July, but leaving it pays off.

Bird’s-foot Trefoil (Lotus corniculatus) is first to take hold. It’s a low-growing plant with bright yellow, pea-like flowers. Its seed pods resemble a bird’s foot, giving it its name.

A buff-tailed bumblebee feeding on vivid yellow Bird’s-foot Trefoil flowers, framed by lush green foliage — a pollinator favourite in summer meadows.

Threaded among the trefoil is Ragwort (Jacobaea vulgaris), often maligned but a lifeline for the Cinnabar moth.

A cluster of Cinnabar moth caterpillars with bold black and orange stripes feeding on a Ragwort plant — a vital part of the summer wildflower ecosystem.

What’s Looking Good Now

Astrantia 'Roma' blooming beneath the foliage of a chocolate elderberry — soft pink flowers glowing in the morning light, with dappled shade from noon onwards.

Astrantias are in full bloom. Astrantia 'Roma' loves its spot beneath the chocolate elderberry, catching direct morning sun and dappled afternoon shade.

A lush mix of Astrantia varieties growing along a fence line, their delicate pincushion blooms catching the late noon to evening sun.

Other varieties along the fence line are thriving in stronger noon-to-evening light.

Towering purple Allium 'Ambassador' blooms standing above feathery fennel foliage, adding height and drama to the back of the border.

The Allium 'Globemaster' are at their peak — towering high at the back of the border, defying the grey weather.

Rose Transplant Update

Close-up of dried, curled rose leaves tinged with red — signs of stress following transplanting.

The rose I transplanted is doing relatively okay. Some leaves have dried up — maybe root damage from the move, or maybe overwatering. I might spray with a foliar feed to help it along.

Reflections on Letting Go

This area encapsulates what I want in a garden: something always changing, something new every month. Never static. Always evolving.

I despise the mausoleum-garden: sterile, lifeless, cold. A garden without bees and insects is dead inside.

A view through rain-dappled fruit trees towards tall, uncut grass — the lush wildness barely touched by the heavy summer rain.

I love this kind of work — kneeling in the dirt in autumn, planting bulbs by hand, welts on my fingers — knowing the payoff will come six months later.

A lesson for life if ever there was one: work hard now, and the rewards will follow. The fruits will bear eventually.

Sunday, June 1, 2025

Rescuing a Rose: A Battle Against Grass and a New Beginning in Containers

A close-up of the ‘William Morris’ rose in bloom, soft apricot petals unfurling against dark green foliage, September 2023.

A few years back, I faced a dilemma in my front garden. An old rose — one I valued highly — had become entangled with some invasive grass. It wasn't just a surface nuisance; the grass had worked its way deep into the root ball.

Digging it up was brutal work. I thought I’d cleared it. Believing I was thorough, I replanted the rose a few feet away, wary of Rose Replant Disease, that unseen enemy lying in wait under tired soil.

But I had underestimated the grass. It returned, fiercer than before, and choked out not only the rose but also a delicate underplanting of lamium I had carefully chosen to complement it. The border, once a quiet harmony of leaf and bloom, had turned chaotic.


A Battle for the Rose

A mighty battle ensued between me and the rose today.

The empty space in the garden after digging up the rose, surrounded by Acuba and centaurea.

My first plan of attack was to pour about 50 litres of water over and around the rose — softening up the target before getting my hands dirty.

Next, I attacked with a shovel, digging around the root ball, and pouring more water into the hole as I pried the ground under the rose up. I circled the plant, repeating the manoeuvre, then deployed my trusted iron bar. Wedging it beneath the plant, I stood on the other end to lever the rose upwards.

With the ground thoroughly soaked, I got down to the finer work — removing the grass sod by hand and stripping away as much soil as possible.

Then came the loppers: long bypass loppers to sever the deeper roots. It became an iterative process — wedge, find a root, snip — until at last the rose came free. I lifted it high like a trophy. Victory.

Temporary trug of rainwater, for soaking before replanting.

I transferred the rose to a 40-litre trug filled with rainwater and washed the root ball thoroughly, hoping this time I had finally defeated the grass roots.

Earlier, I had prepared the rose’s new home — another trug, this time filled with a mix of compost, potting grit, chicken manure, and garden soil. I plopped the rose in, topped up the medium, watered it well, and mulched the surface with grit for good measure.

The rose, newly potted in a trug with potting medium and grit mulch, ready for its third chance.

A Pause for the Empty Space

The space left by the rose won't go to waste. I’ll start by removing all the lingering weeds. Then I'll enrich the soil with compost before laying down a porous weed barrier. A thick layer of woodchips will follow — giving the space a year to rest and recover before I decide what should come next.

Patience is part of gardening too.


Arranging My Container Garden

A 3:53-minute tour through my container garden, early summer arrangements.

At this time every year, I rearrange my container garden.

I time it with the start of summer — but more specifically, it happens just after I cut all my alliums to the ground. Once trimmed, I repurpose the allium stalks by sticking them into containers. It's a simple move, but it transforms the whole space.

Where before there was just foliage, now there’s sudden height and structure. The garden shifts from calm and green to bold and dramatic. Most of the plants are still in their growing phase — leaves everywhere but little in the way of bloom. The addition of the alliums gives the garden a sense of grandeur and interest right when it needs it most.

Friday, May 30, 2025

AI Is My Pen, Not My Ghostwriter

Fountain pen resting on laptop keyboard

Artificial Intelligence is everywhere now — writing articles, composing poetry, painting landscapes pixel by pixel. Some embrace it as a surrogate author, surrendering their voice, reasoning, and creative soul to the machine. They feed it a prompt and accept what it gives back, unedited, unchallenged.

That’s not how I work.

For me, AI is a pen — a tool, not a ghostwriter. It captures my thinking but doesn’t replace it. The words, logic, and style remain mine. I use AI not as a replacement for writing but as a method to amplify and refine it.

My Process: Prototyping with AI

My method is based on an old but powerful idea from software development: Rapid Application Development (RAD).

RAD is a prototyping approach. In software, it means building a working version quickly, then iterating, refining, and improving it through constant feedback loops. It's dynamic, fast, and open to change.

I apply the same principles to writing with AI:

  • Start small: I begin with a focused prompt — a paragraph, an idea, a problem.

  • Iterate: I review what the AI returns, prompt it again with refinements or expansions, shaping the material incrementally.

  • Evolve: Each round brings clarity. Some words stay, others go. Logic tightens. Flow sharpens.

  • Control: Throughout, I steer. AI offers possibilities; I choose, judge, and craft.

This way, the work grows organically, but always under human authorship. AI serves the draft — it doesn’t become the author.

The CONFIG File

Every time I plan to make a blog post, I upload a CONFIG file to the AI so it knows what I’m doing. The CONFIG file explains how I’m writing using an iterative, prototyping style. I set the tone. I tell it what type of English I use. I have it prepped to generate tags for each site I upload to.

This allows every post I make to retain my voice, my intent, and my instruction.

The AI may be a generative tool that some people now use to completely write for them — I don’t. I believe this is how AI should be used: as a prototyping partner. When I write prompts, I write about 75% into the chat of what the AI spits back out to me.

This is a very different process from generative AI. This is prototyping AI — where a lot of input from the user is also added.

In the spirit of transparency, here’s the actual CONFIG file I use:

🧠 BLOG THREAD CONTEXT – READ THIS FIRST

This blog is being developed iteratively, using a RAD-style approach.

- The structure is not rigid; it evolves as I write and revise.
- I use a prototyping mindset: sections are built, refined, or reordered based on new input (images, garden events, reflections).
- Tone is practical, reflective, and visually descriptive.
- All formatting should be Blogger-friendly, using correct headers (H1, H2, H3), image placeholders 📸 with alt text, and tags at the end.
- I use British English — spelling, punctuation, and expressions reflect UK norms.

📌 Blogger Label Constraints:
- Maximum of 20 labels per post
- Combined length of all labels (including commas and spaces) must be 200 characters or fewer

📌 X (Twitter) Post Constraints:
- Max 280 characters per post, including link and hashtags
- Use relevant hashtags (aim for 6–9 max)
- Prioritise clear, engaging phrasing and strong verbs

📝 Journal Style:
- Inspired by Marcus Aurelius's Meditations: personal, reflective, and philosophical.
- Entries serve as a means for self-examination and contemplation, rather than for public instruction.
- Emphasis on honesty, clarity, and the exploration of personal thoughts and experiences.



In short: AI is my pen, not my ghost. It helps me write fast, revise smart, and stay honest to my voice. I prototype words like developers prototype software — not aiming for instant perfection but evolving through iteration.



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